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Greetings denizens of the web and the select few people I call my friends who actually read this drivel.
Sorry, that is no way to begin, for I am not melancholy nor am I jaded, merely at a juncture in my life where I care not to delude myself that one day I will have an enormous readership and will become a fabled net-celebrity or netlebrity as it were.
It has been a long time since my last blog, and I feel it necessary to fill you in on what I have been up to. Not that it makes for an exciting fable in it's entirety, but over the next few entries you will find portions of which you will find amusing others you will find slightly sad. I welcome you to post comments with your thoughts :)
I guess most of you who know me already will know that my longtime girlfriend and I have broken up. It's been just over a month now, and from my perspective things between us have been as good as can be expected considering the circumstances of the break up were by no means ugly.
After many ugly fights that were generally about finances or caused by stresses of the finances, the mood between us had cooled somewhat in preceding months. I guess the death-knell for our relationship came when during one of our bigger rows when I reminded Madz that it still wasn't too late for her to get out. I felt that I didn't want to be with someone who felt like they were trapped with me, so I gave her the chance to opt out.
The emotional turmoil of the previous months seemed to crash down on Madz and suddenly a cascading river of tears erupted from her. This was the moment of the drawn out break-up process that I consider to be the defining moment of "this is it".
We continued on for about two weeks after with the conclusion being that she would move out, but we would try to continue dating. During this time I became very introspective, trying desperately to figure out my feelings and thoughts. This time was made more difficult with my study year coming to a close and work peaking. After one night out at dinner I decided that while I felt dear love for Madz, she was not what I wanted from a partner.
And nor I for her.
While we had many a good time in the 22.9 months that we were together, and they seem to be my most vivid memories of the relationship, it was no sweet romance. I'm not going to go into the trials and tribulations of our relationship here, because it is none of your business. Suffice it to say that we are still very close and what affects her affects me, and vice-versa.
So Madz moved out two weeks before Christmas and as bad as this may sound, let me assure you that I mean no malice when I say it, that it was good to have my own space back. It has almost been like I have been able to reclaim my sanctum sanctorum and shape it as I see fit. While the place seems unearthly quiet at times, it is also a welcome peace that I have not experienced in well over 3 years.
Well I think this sufficiently concludes the first chapter of my catching up blogs, consider it a preface or an introduction for entries to come, because there will probably be entries that refer back to this moment at some point.
Greetings denizens of the web and the select few people I call my friends who actually read this drivel.
Sorry, that is no way to begin, for I am not melancholy nor am I jaded, merely at a juncture in my life where I care not to delude myself that one day I will have an enormous readership and will become a fabled net-celebrity or netlebrity as it were.
It has been a long time since my last blog, and I feel it necessary to fill you in on what I have been up to. Not that it makes for an exciting fable in it's entirety, but over the next few entries you will find portions of which you will find amusing others you will find slightly sad. I welcome you to post comments with your thoughts :)
I guess most of you who know me already will know that my longtime girlfriend and I have broken up. It's been just over a month now, and from my perspective things between us have been as good as can be expected considering the circumstances of the break up were by no means ugly.
After many ugly fights that were generally about finances or caused by stresses of the finances, the mood between us had cooled somewhat in preceding months. I guess the death-knell for our relationship came when during one of our bigger rows when I reminded Madz that it still wasn't too late for her to get out. I felt that I didn't want to be with someone who felt like they were trapped with me, so I gave her the chance to opt out.
The emotional turmoil of the previous months seemed to crash down on Madz and suddenly a cascading river of tears erupted from her. This was the moment of the drawn out break-up process that I consider to be the defining moment of "this is it".
We continued on for about two weeks after with the conclusion being that she would move out, but we would try to continue dating. During this time I became very introspective, trying desperately to figure out my feelings and thoughts. This time was made more difficult with my study year coming to a close and work peaking. After one night out at dinner I decided that while I felt dear love for Madz, she was not what I wanted from a partner.
And nor I for her.
While we had many a good time in the 22.9 months that we were together, and they seem to be my most vivid memories of the relationship, it was no sweet romance. I'm not going to go into the trials and tribulations of our relationship here, because it is none of your business. Suffice it to say that we are still very close and what affects her affects me, and vice-versa.
So Madz moved out two weeks before Christmas and as bad as this may sound, let me assure you that I mean no malice when I say it, that it was good to have my own space back. It has almost been like I have been able to reclaim my sanctum sanctorum and shape it as I see fit. While the place seems unearthly quiet at times, it is also a welcome peace that I have not experienced in well over 3 years.
Well I think this sufficiently concludes the first chapter of my catching up blogs, consider it a preface or an introduction for entries to come, because there will probably be entries that refer back to this moment at some point.
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