Bizang Bitches!

Eh, I dunno. I guess I'm a little excited because its FRIDAY AFTERNOON! WOO!

The next 62 hours are going to be bliss :)

I've been thinking about my situation and based on a few things Lukey said to me on wednesday night on the way to basketball (which we won after a shaky start) and I think leaving my job is probably the way to go. Lining up some decent freelance work and maybe a part-time job to fill in the gaps in income.

I've been thinking that the reason I'm so stressed is I know what I have to do, but I'm scared because I'll be moving outside of my protective bubble. A bubble made from routine, stability and comfort. I don't things to change because like most other people I'm afraid of change. I don't want to have to worry about where my next car payment is going to come from, or where Maddy and I are going to live because we can't pay rent.

But that's just the thing: at the moment I'm living, but I'm not alive.

Work shouldn't be this bad; you shouldn't roll over in the morning and have trouble physically getting out of bed because you hate work so much. People will always say that if people hate working somewhere so much, why don't they just quit? That's a bit rough, and if you haven't been in the position yourself you don't know how difficult it is making that kind of life decision.

I think it's time to take some action. It seems to be the trend; two people resigned today. One had only been here three weeks and said he couldn't handle to workload. Understandable, but very easy decision. The other has worked here a little longer than me (just over 5 years) and he has finally thrown in the towel because he can't stand working for the new Plant Manager (codenamed the choad).

Now that is a difficult decision to make. He has 2 kids, 2 cars a house etc, and he quit. Sure he has other work lined up, but leaving the stability of a job you've held for longer than 5 years is a big deal.

Quite inspiring actually.

Anyway, I probably should go, I will post more soon. :)

Blegh

You probably think that the title of this blog is quite clever or is incredibly apt for the content that is contained within.

Maybe not.

I'll let you in on a little secret: At the time of typing this, it has no title. Because there is so much I want to put in this blog, that it came down to either writing a decent blog or thinking of a title.

That's just how exhausted I am.

Not a good note to start on, I know, so let's try to drag this blog out of the doldrums :)

Right.

Well I'm back at Uni now which is settling in nicely to its new campus in Port Melbourne. It's very nice. They still have shit Macs, and by that I mean that they are old and slow, but at least the campus is nicer than it was. I've managed to produce a couple of pieces of good art already all the while I've been making some good friends. I'm so highly strung at the moment.

(And here we go, right back into the doldrums) Work has really turned to shit with a new manager having been appointed last month that has limited packaging experience. He has been riding everyone really hard, throwing his weight around getting people to do things his way before analysing the way the factory works.

I'm starting to consider whether Uni is such a good idea. I mean I love going because apart from filling the gaps in my knowledge I get to socialise with like-minded people and I get to network. Something I really don't get to do at work. The problem is that I don't think I can sustain this lifestyle for very much longer.

I hate this. I love Uni, but I can't quit my job because I also love to live. I suppose one could argue that I am not in fact living - I'm just being alive. I don't want to quit Uni either, because I believe that I am receiving serious benefits by being there. Just by being around other young designers is improving my work. I feel good hanging around these people. But unfortunately I don't make money by being there, in fact it costs me money to attend. If I were to win Tattslotto, I would quit my job and go to uni full time.

I'm a little too distracted to blog about anything else at the moment. Everything I have to do is getting me down :P I'll blog more soon.